the peacock aa jeans = amazing. i think i'll wear them to the lady sovereign concert i'm going to on may 7th! can't wait!

prom was friday night, so here's a picture of the girls & me...my favorite picture of the day:

of pants and men.

i have always wanted the peacock mineral wash jeans from american apparel. they are my absolute favorite thing but since they're a tad expensive, my mom said she would get them for me only when and if i lost weight. so today, strangely enough, my mom randomly complimented me and told me i had the best butt ever. so, of course, i used the opportunity to ask for the pants, by saying that since my butt's so great i should totally get the jeans. and they have just been ordered. sah-weet.



on a totally separate note, today a good guy frined of mine actually told me "soph, you're way too hot for the friend zone so get the fuck outta there." and i realized how totally right he is! i mean, i'm not saying i think i'm hot, but i definitely am a guys' girl and get along with guys really well. so although i would like to keep my guy friends, i think i need to "the the fuck outta there" and finally land a boy.

random photo from russia: "opinions & trash"

simplicity & crookedness.

taste: cheesecake + green tea
sound: "black river" - amos lee (he is the fucking man. and SO good live.)
smell: rain (i like how rain makes the earth smell)



i know i'm not a fashion poster, but i just bought a few things from american apparel, and i'm excited. so first off, i got the basic hoodie in "sunshine," which i feel like is a wonderful color for clothing. wearing yellow makes me feel happier.
i also got the classic v-necks in white & asphalt. a friend of mine said to me once, "i think all beautiful people should wear simple clothing." that stuck with me. i think simple clothing does work wonders, though. it brings out lots of beautiful things that often go unnoticed due to flashy clothes/accessories.
*random note: if you've ever heard of the british store "accessorize," you might think this is funny...but in russia they have it too, except everyone pronounces it as if it were french so it sounds more like "accessorizay" (i don't know how to type accents on here.)



so, speaking of beauty...i've been told that symmetry plays a big role in the notion of beauty. "symmetry has been scientifically proven to be inherently attractive to the human eye. it has been defined not with proportions, but rather with similarity between the left and right sides of the face." i've noticed, however, that i really enjoy the little flaws in people i like. for example, i found that one of the things i liked a lot about a guy i used to know is that his eyes weren't exactly the same and one of them was noticeably smaller when he smiled. it sounds unattractive, but that was something i thought was really cute. i wonder what that says about me as a person, and whether it means i'm some sort of emotional cripple, haha. i mean, i most likely would not be attracted to someone who was missing an eye, or had half of his face blown off, but i think a little crooked-ness is sexy.

"untitled." on purpose.

Untitled

Why are you in love with me? you ask
as the train weaves through the forest.
I just am. I don’t know. Quit asking.

It’s possible that it’s the way
you sometimes laugh to yourself
when you’re reading about medieval history.

I guess it’s that i don’t mind
laying with you when you’re soaked with rain
because you have too much faith in the weather
and our dryer is broken.

Maybe my love for you lies in the way
you tie your shoelaces,
but i can’t say for certain.

It could be how you swallow me with your silence
when i want nothing but to discuss the details.

It might be something entirely different
which i happened to have forgotten
because i forget things when i’m with you…
and it doesn’t even make me angry.

Perhaps it is because i never have to think about it.

I’d rather not tell you why, though,
because i fear the words
will make it less
or more,
and i think love
deserves to be left alone.